memories i will never find

currently listening to: “Falling Away with You” — Muse

i swear i only write on this thing when i have something HUGE i need to be doing.
right now — currently my 7-9 page english essay. it’s 1:24am and im on page 2. don’t tell me im not screwed.
haha, oh well. it’s only the rough draft due tomorrow, and ehh you need a late nighter every once in awhile — keeps you young. =P

i honestly don’t know if anyone reads my blog. and im terribly sorry for the crap you DO read, if you manage to find your way over here. i might just make a blog myself, cause wordpress is kind of boring. but that is for summer my darlings, and it’s ever expansive time. ^___^

so i am SO pumped for writing the garden gate chapter three. no sarcasm there. i know what i want to write, i know whats going to happen, and ive just been really inspired lately. but of course, dumb school is getting in the way. but only 2 weeks left! hopefully soon, i’ll give you guys a little excerpt (a little prize for whoever checks this thing).

i swear my mom is SO ridiculously supportive — i just love her so much for it. im basically freaking out right now cause i was dumb and didn’t drop my math class earlier in the year (i don’t need it for my major anymore, and if you haven’t figured it out…I LOATHE math. the deepest pit of all that is vengeful.), and probably will get a D in it (if im lucky). and my mom was just telling me to breathe, and that i’ll get through this. and even if i get screwed over and go below the needed GPA for the school, we’ll figure it out. kind of calmed me down a bit. thanks mum.

^^by the way — at the above statement, ive been doing really shitty in school because i did crappy in classes like math and chemistry — classes that i HAATTEEE. obviously classes that i hate = shitty grades. and yet in my history class i got an A, my english classes i get high Bs, or As — which is actually terribly difficult to do in my school’s program. too bad math and chem effed me up. i honestly wished i started in community college for my first year — just so i could have figured out what i wanted to do with my major, and then once i decided, i could go to a 4 year college. in high school, it’s like “NOT COMMUNITY COLLEGE!! NOOOOOO!!!” but once you’re out of that crap-hole, it really doesn’t matter where you go. as long as you’re happy with where you are and what you’re doing.

okay…i think i’ll stop my ranting, cause you’ve had your dose of brianna for the night.
*stares down essay* i shall defeat youuuuuu!!!

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