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for a little bit, i was getting back in high spirits — or maybe just spirited alone.

but it seems in the past 24 hours, ive sunk back down again. i apologize in advance for all this crap you may read — but this is the only way i can find to somewhat cope with it. i KNOW it’s school that’s the cause of this. today i found out that i got a 68 on an anthro test i had this morning — which i expected a B on. and i might have to drop my math class cause im doing so bad in it. i want to pass math, but i swear…that class, math and i REALLY don’t get along. I may understand it on the homework for a least a little bit, but then on the test, it’s like WHOOSH — all previous knowledge gone. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

i also feel soo stupid. i use to be one of the “smart” students in class. Almost all As, maybe a B and a C in math. but now i feel sooo utterly dumb. i really am loathing this feeling.  i know it has to do with my insane lack of ability to concentrate (like now — suppose to be editing an english essay), and severe procrastination. most of my distractions come from the simming world — so i probably will have to take a break — at least until i feel somewhat confident in my classes. because summer’s so close, and then i’ll be online all the time without a worry in the world. as for now…really have to focus on my academics and get out of this rut.

but next year, it’ll be art and creative writing major — better be good.