death by writing

currently listening to:: küçücüğüm by yalin — hahaha. yeah it’s a turkish song.

you should really really really listen to it. mainly because its a cool song, even though i dunno what he’s saying, and 2nd — when i was in istanbul, i was sitting next to him (like literally a foot away) at a restaurant i went to. he’s like HUUUGE in turkey. and i, of course, have no bloody clue as to who he is. i thought he was kinda cute, so i kept looking over there — he probably just thought i was a fan or something…psh. haha. afterwards my friend and her friends were like “ohhh myyy godddd brianna!!! i cant believe you were sitting next to yalin!!!!”
me — “that eggplant lasagna was good. what’s a yalin?” — yes. that was my actual answer. i will forever be shamed in turkey. haha.

i end up writing on here whenever im majorly procrastinating doing something — tonight it’s my anthropology sentences. its 12:25am and i havent started them. blah. they’re just a pain in the ass is what they are. i really really hate my teacher. though i like anthropology. psh whatever.

so like ana, im UBER excited to start writing…but im still waiting to get inspired. this is one of the worst feelings — wanting to write soooo bad, but having no clue what to write. i need to talk to someone about the plot…or something. not sure. but i need to get my thoughts in order, or ill end up going insane from all this bottled up writing energy. — eh, it could kill, you never know.

i got my book “how to be a graphic designer” from amazon today. woop! haha, sooo yeah. ditching the whole bio major and becoming an art major — going to be a design interest. but that means i have to submit a portfolio to get into the art program in the first place — and its 12 picturs. TWELVE. thats an insane amount. looks like i’ll be drawing all summer. bah. and of course im freaking out that i won’t get accepted. i mean, i think i can draw somewhat well, but its that whole originality/creativity thing. GAH. and i wont know until like late november. and even if i do get accepted, i might not even get a place in the program cause it’s all filled up. jkdla;jfl;a. but this is what i want, so i’ll keep trying until i get in. gugh.

i have absolutely no clue what to do for my hntm round. i thought i had something — but it was too…blah. looks like i’ll have to be coloring some hair. -______- not my cup of tea. its more like hack a lugee into my tea kind of deal. god. *grumblegrumble*

oh and if you haven’t done so yet…READ DECEPTION PASS. its effing brilliant. ive been reading them like crazy lately trying to get through all the episodes and get caught up. and im finally at the part (quote ana) where “the shit has hit the fan” (endquote). its crazy. its insane. and i looooove it.

alright. damn anthro homework. and stupid math quiz tomorrow. (NO MORE MATH AFTER THIS YEAR! — maybe. classes like that always like to sneak back into my schedule and piss the hell out of me)