You’re right. If I won, I wouldn’t let you go

ahhh okay i just finished watching House of Flying Daggers. best movie evverrr.

i had heard about it, but was never into watching a subtitle flick. but in the recent years, i guess i’ve broadened my horizons? anyhow, i have been DYING to watch it. and it was finally on HBO. i just loved it.

the music was soooo amazing. i’d just watch it for the sweeping soundtrack. and the scenary and special-effects. O_O. enough to keep your mouth gaping the entire time. then there was all these twists and turns. and the plotline…SO amazing. i totally thought it would be about this power struggle over these two groups in ancient china. not really that AT ALL. gahh and the ending. bahhh. okay im going to stop now. haha.

i came home today. woooop. nice to be back. but then i have college looming over my head. i’m so unmotivated in college. in high school — i had the idea of getting accepted into a good school to keep me motivated. i’ve got nothing now. i think it’s because im so confused on what i want to do. i looove art and english. but theres nothing there for me. all the jobs are so sketchy — nothing really solid. which is why i want to major in biology. but im slacking MAJORLY in math and chemistry. i dont know whats up with me. i think i might have to take pre-calc over again, cause i haven’t passed the skills test — that you NEED to pass in order to pass the class. seriously. what the hell is up with me? this isn’t like me. i usually at least TRY.  uuugghhh.

at least i have more friends now. thats a bonus.  i felt HORRIBLE first quarter allll the time, because i honestly didn’t have like ANY friends except my dummmbb roommate. thank god things have gotten better. i know this one really nice girl named erica — i just hope we stay friends in the following years. i feel kind of weird though…cause like ALL her friends are gooorgeous. like it’s some quality you have to have to be her friend. which i mean, is a huge compliment to me. but kind of shallow you know? well its not like she’s mean to other people — so no big deal. just kind of…weird i guess. haha.

alright. enough of me. i think im going to go off and write some more watermark. (i haven’t written anything in over two weeks. eeeeeek)

p.s. title is a quote from “house of flying daggers”. yeah a bit obsessed. haha. PLUS it has the yummy mr. takeshi in it. ahh the asian orlando bloom. *swoons* and zhang ziyi. i SWEAR that woman is the definition of beauty. gahhhh. so gorgeous.